Spiderstring

by Angharad Yeo

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'Spiderstring' is a labour of love and honesty.

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released May 23, 2014

All songs written by Angharad Yeo.
Produced, recorded, mixed and mastered by Beau Hindman in Story City, IA.

Vocals, acoustic guitar, electric guitar, ukulele, keys, banjo and bass by Angharad Yeo.
Drums by Austin Carlson.
Piano on tracks 5, 8 & 10 and flute on track 7 by Jenn Hindman.
Bass on track 2 & 10 and lead guitar on tracks 2 & 9 by Beau Hindman.

Artwork by Robyn Molyneaux.

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Track Name: All I See
So maybe I shouldn’t love at all
‘Cause surely a broken thing is worse than nothing at all
So maybe I shouldn’t love at all
‘Cause surely a broken thing is worse than nothing at all

I’ve been hiding so that no one knows
Inside me is a heart where nothing grows
But in the dark, inadvertently,
I think I’ve built a heart that God can’t see

Oh, how unfair that I should have this fear in me
Where I’m so convinced I can’t love properly
And it’s starting to take its toll
So I thought you should know
That it’s not defiance
Just all I see

I miss the water, and I’m oh so sick of sand
This punishment has gotten out of hand
For the fear bestowed upon me
Is not for my faith, but for all I see

Oh, how unfair that I should have this fear in me
Where I’m so convinced I can’t love properly
And it’s starting to take its toll
So I thought you should know
That it’s not defiance
Just all I see

I keep on thinking about things I can’t change in me
They blur with my choice, distort reality
I’m not interested in controversy
Just want the freedom to be me
I missed the part where God only loved those who were like you
And everyone else was just scenery around you
You say it’s love, but you know not what you do
Your interpretation’s your almighty truth

Oh, how unfair that I should have this fear in me
Where I’m so convinced I can’t love properly
And it’s starting to take its toll
So I thought you should know
That it’s not defiance
Just all I see
Track Name: Bad Habits
I’m not sure how to tell you this
Been thinking a while now that something’s been quite a-miss
Like every little fear that you ever had about me is true

You think we need some fun and games
Sorry to disappoint you, but I don’t feel the same
You need a little drama?
Just don’t try to find it with me

We’ve all got our little bad habits
But you’re turning it into all that matters
Like it defines you, or reminds you
You’re realer than most

Don’t you know that there is more to life than
What you’re thinking, what you’re feeling?
The problem, babe, is you’re not trying
You let it drag you down the deep end

I know I make these judgments quite unfairly:
I’m not the one inside your head
It’s all that I can infer from what can be confirmed
From all the things you’ve done and said

We’ve all got our little bad habits
But you’re turning it into all that matters
Like it defines you, or reminds you
You’re realer than most

I speak, but I don’t listen
I try, but I still falter
Just don’t stake so much importance in what I have to say
These tides are ever rushing
Through space that we can’t follow
Are you sure that what you’re worshipping is worth your tomorrow?

Protrude from my skin to speak of my sin
For it has consumed me
And I? Nothing at all
Track Name: First Waters
I’d say our love was from the first waters
But its still pools are breeding disease
It’s indescribable, damn near detestable
And if I could, everything that I know now
would send me running from you

God, what is the point?
What’s with bringing me here to what I can’t handle?
But I, I’m so selfish – I swear this will be my demise
I’ve got a rotten nature
Swallowing all my good intentions
But intentions mean nothing if they’re poured through an old skin

And I will say, “You’re so problematic.”
Yet hope this fantasy’s allowed to exist
With every breath I take, I love the sounds you make
With not a space between our bodies or souls

God, what is the point?
What’s with bringing me here to what I can’t handle?
But I, I’m so selfish – I swear this will be my demise
I’ve got a rotten nature
Swallowing all my good intentions
But intentions mean nothing if they’re poured through an old skin
Track Name: Liar's Sweat
The air is cold, but your skin is warm
And it’s all I need to be convinced that you are not a liar
Three years of doubt, they fall like rags
All because you’ve got those eyes, that smile

I smell a liar’s sweat, but I see a lover’s face
You’ll promise me the world if I’ll profess there’s no such thing as grace
You are my heaven, but I can’t ignore my world
You are my heaven, but I can’t ignore my world

I turn off my senses to avoid reminders, but my memory ain’t so forgiving
You’re in everything, and through the words I sing I am
Inadvertently keeping you in my heart

I smell a liar’s sweat, but I see a lover’s face
You’ll promise me the world if I’ll profess there’s no such thing as grace
You are my heaven, but I can’t ignore my world
You are my heaven, but I can’t ignore my world

You’ve got me scared to speak, cause if I
Utter a word it might reveal my shame
I fell in love with you, and I would do it again
I know I drove this wedge between us
But you held it still while I took my aim
We’re discontent with loneliness
But we’ve no one to blame but ourselves
We can only blame ourselves
Track Name: At Least
I keep judging my self worth on my ability to love
It keeps turning empty pockets up at me
I’m trying to recalibrate my approach to all of the above
But it feels I’m struggling out at sea

I was told to wait for my knight in shining armour
But it turns out that I’m no dame
So if it so happened you were nothing that my heart desired
Would you love me just the same?

But at least my father can still make my mother laugh
At least they still hold hands
Though there may not be that love inside of me
I’ve got a little evidence it’s there

Just because you love something
Doesn’t mean you have to be it
I wish someone had told me that before
That just because you love someone
Doesn’t mean you have to be theirs
I wish someone had told me that before

But at least my father can still make my mother laugh
At least they still hold hands
Though there may not be that love inside of me
I’ve got a little evidence it’s there
Track Name: Perfectly
Taking up all my time with thoughts of you
You’re the reason that I sing
Our words are short, but I feel close to you
And I think that we could be something

‘Cause you are too good to be true
Yet you stand before me
You could almost fade in a smoke
Leave me standing here all alone

You’re like a perfect song written just for me
Or the brightest day I’d live in eternally
Boy, you got me spinning head-over-heels
Like never before, and I love how that feels

You are too good to be true
Yet you stand before me
You could almost fade in a smoke
Leave me standing here all alone

I just want an excuse to be closer to you
Any one will do
I’m going insane trying to find my way
I need you around, so don’t walk away
I’m not afraid to say,
“Please stay with me.”

Well, slow down
Slow it right on down
Don’t walk away from me
Just say you’ll stay for me

She’s not the one for you,
When I could be everything you wanted
Baby, I could be everything you needed
If you would just look and see

That you were too good to be true
Yet you stood before me
You can just fade away in a smoke
Leave me standing here all alone

But I won’t waste my time on a boy
That thinks that he is all that
I’m going my way,
And I swear that I won’t be coming back
Track Name: Stick With You
I wanna be the one who, to you
Feels like home
And when you look into my eyes
You’ll see you’re beautiful

You’ll never have to be lonely
‘Cause I’ll stick with you
You’ll never have to be lonely
‘Cause I’ll stick with you

All your insecurities can be lost in me
Cause I don’t care what you’ve been
I just care that you’re trying
And I already like you

You’ll never have to be lonely
‘Cause I’ll stick with you
You’ll never have to be lonely
‘Cause I’ll stick with you

And I won’t be proud when it comes to you
I won’t be selfish, I’ll tell the truth
‘Cause I want to be good for you

You’ll never have to be lonely
‘Cause I’ll stick with you
You’ll never have to be lonely
‘Cause I’ll stay with you

And I’ll never be lonely
‘Cause I’ll be with you
Track Name: I Won't Sigh
Last night I dreamt that I was loved
When she came outside and told me I
Was someone that she wasn't sure of
But I was worth a try

I tried to be honest, though I was scared
Said I didn't want her to be
Someone I'd regret

But oh, it's such a fight
When you're living in dreams, then you live for the night
But oh, I won't sigh
I won't sigh

She wrote me a note, and with her hand on her chest
She swore it was I who she loved best
And I told her
She was worth a try

Then the sun had to creep in, and steal her away
And I had to wake up to face the day alone
I'm always alone

But oh, it's just a dream
And I'm beginning to doubt there's that sort of love for me
But oh, I won't sigh
I won't sigh

Oh, oh
I was hoping you'd be here by now
Darling, you've been prayed for and prepared for
Oh, oh
Can you pull me from this wretched dream?
'Cause I wanna see what reality's got in store for me

But oh, it's hard to see
That there really will be that sort of love for me
But oh, I won't sigh
I won't sigh
Track Name: Provenance
I’ll only ever speak to you in whispers
For I’m scared of what a louder voice would do
It’d shatter your bones, tear a hole through your soul
Or break your tiny, beating heart in two

But you’re so delicate, girl
That one of these days you’re gonna break
And when you do
My heart might go with you

So go on, tie your thoughts to lyricality
And sing them to the wind
Like you can tame them then leave them
Put your trust in your lies,
At least you know their provenance
At least they know your provenance

If you can forgive yourself
For every time you hurt yourself
Then maybe you’ll start listening to me
I’m nobody’s savior, but I’ll show the door
Through which we’ll step to living oh so fancy free

But I can’t stand
The way our every conversation goes
Like you loved me
'Cause I loved you
Yet I’m unknown

So go on, tie your thoughts to lyricality
And sing them to the wind
Like you can tame them then leave them
Put your trust in your lies,
At least you know their provenance
At least they know your provenance

Try to be someone that would deserve your love
Then drown out all your regrets with alcohol and cigarettes
Listen to the radio to paint a picture of your soul
Do you really know your provenance?
Do you really know?

I’ll keep singing to the wind 'til it answers back, yeah
I’ll keep singing to the wind 'til it answers back, yeah
I’ll keep singing to the wind
'Til it answers, it answers back, it answers back
Track Name: Reassess
I’m taking every second of hurt as a lesson learned because
My stubbornness says there’s more than this
If I were to chase everything that makes me feel good
I don’t think I’d much like who caught it

Consume a youth you can’t control

Reassess, reassess yourselves lest
Every decision you’ve ever made
Sits on one you wouldn’t make now
Fall apart to see what pieces won’t fit
Then hate yourself for being inconsistent
You can’t be happy with a mindset like that

Is it still truth you seek?
Or are you trading it for guilty pleasures
‘Cause nothing quite measures
Up to expectations

It’s never enough, you’re never enough
I’ve got everything need, yet I’m never satisfied
What a waste of a life
What a waste

Consume a youth you can’t control

Reassess, reassess yourselves lest
Every decision you’ve ever made
Sits on one you wouldn’t make now
Fall apart to see what pieces won’t fit
Then hate yourself for being inconsistent
You can’t be happy with a mindset like that
Track Name: The Standard
I’m not trying to change the standard
Just don’t wanna be misunderstood
With all that I think, and then all that I read, and then all that you’re telling me how
Am I supposed to reconcile?

Now, I said, “If my love is such a sin,
Then I’ll do my darndest not to give in.”
But it’s making me cold, and it’s making me sad, and I turn on myself, and get so paranoid
I don’t feel pious at all

But I already gave up one life
Just to remain vilified
I refuse to believe that my God made me
Just so I could feel this pain
So stop telling me what I’ve missed

Well, it seems to me that the more that I hear, the further it drives me away
I know where I stand, but you’re making me doubt
Why should I be so scared of a voice that doesn’t know my head?
Or a mind that can’t see my heart?

But I already gave up one life
Just to remain vilified
I refuse to believe that his Son died for me
Just to give you the license to shame
So stop telling me what I’ve missed

What you don’t seem to get
Is that I’ve tried, and as of yet
He has never made me think that I’m wrong

See, I’ve talked about it, I’ve screamed about it
I’ve tried to doubt it and live without it
But in the end
It’s just people’s words

But I already gave up one life
Just to remain vilified
I refuse to believe you know better for me
When you can’t even say my name
So stop telling me
What to be, what to think, how to learn, how to love
I refuse to believe the finality you would use to put me away
So stop telling me what I’ve missed

I’m not trying to change the standard